I usually take my medication around 11pm-12am. So I have about an 1/2 hour before it starts to make me sleepy. I could feel it wearing off tonight though. My body felt exposed and broke out in cold sweat. I'm sort of afraid. If I stop taking this, will I crash?
The only thing that makes everything feel better, like there's some sanity left within the world, is music. Any music, just a sweet bass, hypnotic melody and nice lyrics, and the world seems to stop. The second I plug my headphones in, the world can't touch me, nothing can. Not even the worst news in history. Maybe that makes me sound like any other teenager, but I'm willing to bet my right arm (which I love) that there are "adults" who find music just as essential. Unplug them and watch their world unravel.
I've noticed that I have trouble waking up to my alarm and I was hoping that I could figure out a way to escape the groginess. It doesn't wear off till about 8am, which doesn't help considering I have to get up 4am.
It's only the second day, but I feel better. Even if it the subconscious hope that this could help me rebuild the bridges I burned that night.
About Me
- Hell's Quookie
- Majority of the time I feel like I am a ghost wandering the hallways of people's minds, learning how to flow back and forth between this world and my own. But seriously, I read too much and allow myself to get sucked into the lives of characters because they are never in short supply. I am a dreamer, a melodrama queen, and above all else a sinner.
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